Here’s a related article on the energy of commitment.
Navigating a Relationship When There are Personal Priorities That Feel More Important
Feeling a Strong, Unmet Need for Intimacy
Also, this article has some tips that might be helpful on getting more of what you want out of your connections.
Relationship With Lots of Entanglement That Doesn’t Feel Good
Here’s a relevant article on viewing a relationship as its own entity.
This article on conscious relationships might also have some helpful ideas.